My worlds have become very opposite in my work world I feel too old compared to my colleagues who are trying to finish their BA degrees while in my networking group I think I am viewed as one of the young ones so far. I have not made it to a monthly meeting of the networking group so I won't have a good idea about how many "young" people are in the group tell then. So far I have only counted two me and one other person. Also in dealing with the stress of hunting for a job and joining job groups I have been emotionally and stress eating and for someone who has been trying to lose weight for way too long this is not a good idea. I have noticed I get started and then something happens and I return to my bad habits.
Well at least I am noticing a pattern. My plan tomorrow is to at least go back to counting calories. I plan to include exercise when my schedule is more routine tell then I will probably walking every day at least. Also I need to continue avoiding the scale for a while because I saw the numbers this morning and I was not happy. I am edging way too close to what I weighed before. At least with yoga last semester I was able to maintain my weight.
I think in trying to lose weight and get a job the stress of it all is telling me is I need to find more healthy ways to deal with stress no matter how little or big. So that way I can lose weight and have an income. I need more impulse control. I am hoping once I have adjusted to a "schedule" of some sorts that I will have an easier time with the job hunting and losing weight. Readers any thoughts to accomplish any of these small goals would be much appreciated...
Wednesday, March 20, 2013
Thursday, March 14, 2013
The art of putting yourself out there...
I recently joined a networking group and will have my graduation day tomorrow, yeah. It has been an interesting experience to say the least. I have met some very enthusiastic and passionate people. However, given that I think I am a ambiavert I tend to save my enthusiasm for certain situations and be quiet or nervous in situations when I don't know the person all that well. I didn't know whether I should be scared or impressed by their energy. I am one of those calm go with the follow kind of people but I will freak out on occasion given that I am human. The one thing I can comment on this whole experience so far is that I won't have time to be in a funk with all the resumes I will have to be writing, places to apply to, and practice interviews to do while still figuring out what I plan to do with my life. I have gone from having nothing to do to thinking I am going to need a planner to keep track of my "new" schedule.
I am just hoping I can keep up with it. I have been attending these early events while getting over laryngytis since apparently I am a masochist. I will be glad to get to friday and my bed and sleep, as much as this experience as woke me up in a sense. However, this waking up while a good thing, is not helping with the getting sleep and feeling better part of my recovery which is all on me. I think after this sleep I can figure out somewhat what to do in this so called "transitioning" part of my life post grad school. Or at the very least come up with a vague outline of the stuff I know I can do without turning myself into a human tornado. I am curious are there any other people who felt this lost/wondering/confused once they were done with school?
I am just hoping I can keep up with it. I have been attending these early events while getting over laryngytis since apparently I am a masochist. I will be glad to get to friday and my bed and sleep, as much as this experience as woke me up in a sense. However, this waking up while a good thing, is not helping with the getting sleep and feeling better part of my recovery which is all on me. I think after this sleep I can figure out somewhat what to do in this so called "transitioning" part of my life post grad school. Or at the very least come up with a vague outline of the stuff I know I can do without turning myself into a human tornado. I am curious are there any other people who felt this lost/wondering/confused once they were done with school?
Wednesday, March 13, 2013
I am not sure if I have a dream...
Alright for the networking group I am in we basically as a group with the help of a perk uplifting speaker who reminded me of a self help book in person form who wanted to help the group figure out what our ideal dream or vision was and how to get there. This for me is very confusing because I have just finished my education at least for now and their are many dreams I would like to accomplish. Also I know because I have goal or dream in mind, that does mean that A) I am good at it B) that I should be making a career out of it. I am at this point in my life where even if I have one clear cut dream and ways to get there that I need to keep my options open if I ever want to make a living and start a career of some sort.
I don't view this as a negative thing. Also I know for any dreams that I want to happen that I am going to have to work for it. The one thing that the speaker and many of my colleagues did was give me ideas on top of my own ideas of how I was going to get there. But this is scary for me to because just because I want the dream and think I will be good at it, it does not mean that it will happen. I think my issue is that I am too much of a jaded realist and I have learned time and time again that what you plan for in life and what actually happens are two totally different things. I guess this might have been why I had a hard time buying into what the speaker was saying and thinking that if you envision it that it will happen, because life experience has taught me otherwise. So I am curious reader do think I should have taken what the speaker was saying with a grain of salt or just given this person the benefit of the doubt and tried to learn from them?
I don't view this as a negative thing. Also I know for any dreams that I want to happen that I am going to have to work for it. The one thing that the speaker and many of my colleagues did was give me ideas on top of my own ideas of how I was going to get there. But this is scary for me to because just because I want the dream and think I will be good at it, it does not mean that it will happen. I think my issue is that I am too much of a jaded realist and I have learned time and time again that what you plan for in life and what actually happens are two totally different things. I guess this might have been why I had a hard time buying into what the speaker was saying and thinking that if you envision it that it will happen, because life experience has taught me otherwise. So I am curious reader do think I should have taken what the speaker was saying with a grain of salt or just given this person the benefit of the doubt and tried to learn from them?
Wednesday, February 27, 2013
The quarter life crisis as seen in Take Me Home Tonight
I couldn't sleep as per usual so I decided to stay up and watch a movie on Netflix. The movie I decided to watch was Take me home tonight, which I thought would remind me of other 1980's movies given that I have seen all the romcom classics For Keeps?, The Breakfast club, Some Kind of wonderful, Say Anything, etc.. However, even though this movie was placed in the 80's it came out on Mar. 4th, 2011. But this movie revealed the crisis facing those who have just graduated or those who have graduated years ago. I know this feeling, you have just finished your BA or BS, or were fired from a job you never liked in the first place. You have no clue what you are going to do or where you are going to be this job for your career whatever that is.
Through the main characters in this film we were able to see this quarter life crisis of those who have no idea what the future holds. Now, I am sure for most people in their 20's this would be a bad thing, I however to believe to be a good thing, the world is your oyster and anything is possible. But, the prospect of this is terrifying to anyone, I can relate I plan to get my MA in English within the year and I have no idea what will happen after words, yet this thrills and excites me all at the same time. I think was necessary to see through Trish and Matt the main couple through this movie, that it is ok to not know what will happen in the future. Their relationship was further enhanced by the fun and light hearted songs such as the safety dance and "Come on Eileen" by the Proclaimers. I think these characters are like Ted from HIMYM and they need to realize that is not the destination that matters but that the journey is half the fun.
But this hard to do as people in their 20s when they realize that when they hit 28 and if they go to a high school reunion people will be asking what they are doing with their lives, and they will have to give an answer to that very annoying question. I think people especially people in their 20s like me fear not knowing the answer to this question. I know I do, heck I would probably avoid a reunion just to avoid this question in the first place. I think maybe this movie is just trying to teach their viewers to shoot for something, even if they don't know what that something is yet.
Through the main characters in this film we were able to see this quarter life crisis of those who have no idea what the future holds. Now, I am sure for most people in their 20's this would be a bad thing, I however to believe to be a good thing, the world is your oyster and anything is possible. But, the prospect of this is terrifying to anyone, I can relate I plan to get my MA in English within the year and I have no idea what will happen after words, yet this thrills and excites me all at the same time. I think was necessary to see through Trish and Matt the main couple through this movie, that it is ok to not know what will happen in the future. Their relationship was further enhanced by the fun and light hearted songs such as the safety dance and "Come on Eileen" by the Proclaimers. I think these characters are like Ted from HIMYM and they need to realize that is not the destination that matters but that the journey is half the fun.
But this hard to do as people in their 20s when they realize that when they hit 28 and if they go to a high school reunion people will be asking what they are doing with their lives, and they will have to give an answer to that very annoying question. I think people especially people in their 20s like me fear not knowing the answer to this question. I know I do, heck I would probably avoid a reunion just to avoid this question in the first place. I think maybe this movie is just trying to teach their viewers to shoot for something, even if they don't know what that something is yet.
Change is good...
Well, I know that I have called this blog the bookworm for a while but it took me a while how much I have limiting in myself in what I post on this blog. Also as many readers have noticed I have been going through a reading dry spell that I am still trying to recover from and try to get back into reading small books, much less anything else. I have decided to change this title so I can have the freedom to post about the many things of interest to me such as tv shows, movies, cooking and possibly fashion. Also I can be very ADD so I figure if I have various things to talk about every week it won't seem so out of the ordinary. I do still plan to review books, it just might not be as often as usual.
Also I have been in a sort of post graduate funk so my hope is that through blogging and other activities I can forget about said funk. Also writing on the blog is one of my few forms of catharsis. I am one of those weird people when I get into these movies I tend to re-watch a series, or movie with the hope that it will help me reevaluate a situation in a better light. Actually it was through re-watching Palladino's Gilmore girls that I came up with this title from an episode where Rory is commenting that her mom "likes washing dishes too. She's multi-faceted abnormal."(1.14. That Damm Donna Reed). I figured this was applicable with my multiple nerdy interests. Well I guess this is all for now, will try to post more later.
Also I have been in a sort of post graduate funk so my hope is that through blogging and other activities I can forget about said funk. Also writing on the blog is one of my few forms of catharsis. I am one of those weird people when I get into these movies I tend to re-watch a series, or movie with the hope that it will help me reevaluate a situation in a better light. Actually it was through re-watching Palladino's Gilmore girls that I came up with this title from an episode where Rory is commenting that her mom "likes washing dishes too. She's multi-faceted abnormal."(1.14. That Damm Donna Reed). I figured this was applicable with my multiple nerdy interests. Well I guess this is all for now, will try to post more later.
Monday, February 4, 2013
Post grad life....
Well the good news is that I found that I got an A on my masters thesis. The bad news is as of lately I am feeling sort of lost and not sure what I am planning to do with my life post grad school. In the beginning I thought this was a good thing but apparently idle hands make me critical, add, and a little itchy whether I intend to be or not around other people and myself. On top of my idleness I have been procrastinating stuff that I need to do such as cleaning my room, looking for work, doing the chores around the house, etc. I know how to do these things I think I have just been too mopey to do them.
These feelings make me wonder through if there are any others like me fresh out of grad school wondering what the heck do I do with my life now?? I know I would like to teach English at a community college but just because this is what I want to do, it doesn't necessarily mean that I would be good at it or that I should do it in the first place. So on top of trying to achieve what I want to do I need to come up with backups in case things don't go as planned. I have to imagine what would I like to do with my life if I wasn't going to teach and I come up with too many options. I think the weight of everything to come is just stressing and freaking me out its like a quiet panic attack. I had panic attacks when I was a freshman I was hoping to avoid them now. I am wondering if anyone else graduating seniors or grad students are having similar mini panic attacks....Well thanks for listening readers and I hope to post reviews on books as soon as I get the chance.
These feelings make me wonder through if there are any others like me fresh out of grad school wondering what the heck do I do with my life now?? I know I would like to teach English at a community college but just because this is what I want to do, it doesn't necessarily mean that I would be good at it or that I should do it in the first place. So on top of trying to achieve what I want to do I need to come up with backups in case things don't go as planned. I have to imagine what would I like to do with my life if I wasn't going to teach and I come up with too many options. I think the weight of everything to come is just stressing and freaking me out its like a quiet panic attack. I had panic attacks when I was a freshman I was hoping to avoid them now. I am wondering if anyone else graduating seniors or grad students are having similar mini panic attacks....Well thanks for listening readers and I hope to post reviews on books as soon as I get the chance.
Sunday, December 2, 2012
What is an "American"?
I know this a weird topic to post about since I have tried to spend the past couple months trying to post about books, but this topic came up from a debate I was having with my stepbrother in the car. He was arguing that immigrants from other countries should learn to speak English in order to be deemed an "American". I think the reason this argument peeved me so much is because "American" is such a mutt term given that most Americans have come from other countries and as far I am concerned it is their choice as to whether or not they want to learn English while residing here. This is complicated by the fact that people that come from other countries most likely come from various backgrounds.
Some international residents are here to just get their degrees and leave. Another perspective is those generation 1.5 generation who are balancing maintaining their own language while deciding whether or not to acclimate to American culture. Finally it could be the parents of generation 1.5 ers who might not want to learn the language of English (but I am sure their are outliers who do) but again it is their choice and they does not make them any less American. So I have to ask you readers out their does spending 7+ years learning a language such as English make you "American"? I am not sure how I feel about this when America is known as the country where you have the freedom to speak the language you like be it Hmong, Spanish, Chinese etc...with the hope that you won't be judged by others.
Some international residents are here to just get their degrees and leave. Another perspective is those generation 1.5 generation who are balancing maintaining their own language while deciding whether or not to acclimate to American culture. Finally it could be the parents of generation 1.5 ers who might not want to learn the language of English (but I am sure their are outliers who do) but again it is their choice and they does not make them any less American. So I have to ask you readers out their does spending 7+ years learning a language such as English make you "American"? I am not sure how I feel about this when America is known as the country where you have the freedom to speak the language you like be it Hmong, Spanish, Chinese etc...with the hope that you won't be judged by others.
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