My average experience at hometown buffet

   I recently went to "Hometown Buffet" with my family to celebrate mothers day.  The food was average, not good, not bad never anything to rave about. When it comes to hometown buffet I know what to expect, its like an average burger place you know what you are getting.  I know that they might be known for their ribs and sliced meats.  I am still wishing they served chicken gravy, because it always tasted better than their beef gravy.
   Even with these downsides "Hometown Buffet" does have some perks. For instance they now have instant coffee , slushy, and horchata machines.  Also their is a whole rack filled with condiments to add to your food. Even with my expectations and these now added perks, the one thing that disappointed me this time when I went to hometown buffet was the service. The last time we were their are plates were cleared every couple plates. This time by the end of the meal, none of our plates were cleared at all.
    This too me is a sign that either that the local is understaffed or that our table was not a priority at the time. The reason this was such a faux pas to me is because no one wants to see their mostly eaten food when they are trying to eat a meal. I know, I don't anyway.  So readers I have to ask if you have had any better or worse eating experiences at "Hometown Buffet"?

The life I never had passing before my eyes...

  Well, I went in for a routine gynecology appointment with the hope of getting a birth control prescription for the year.  While, I was able to accomplish this I found out that their is a possibility that I might have endometriosis which could cause infertility in the future. I then discovered on my dad's sides of the family that it was a common occurrence with some of my aunts. I also found out that some of them had to have hysterectomies when they were in their 40's. The thing with this condition is I have to find out I can afford the laproscopy procedure and then determine whether or not to have it, and if it will have to make me figure out how I feel towards having kids.
     The weird thing was when I found this out I was more worried about how my bf might take it compared me. I was more worried/possibly a bit paranoid that me possibly being infertile might be a deal breaker so to speak. I really didn't care too much about how I felt about the situation. My main concerns are  having a career, and maybe getting married in the future, the possibility of having kids is in the back burner. I am just not sure to do when the future I am never sure if I wanted it or not in the first place started flashing before my eyes.
    This whole situation makes me more emotional and confused when it comes to the idea of having children. And I already feel like I can be too emotional as it is in some situations, and the fact that flo is coming to town in a couple days makes me more sensitive and moody about things then I would like to be. This situation also has me wondering if their have been other women out there who have these same mixed feelings about children and their future.  Also how did they deal with it?  As it is I can deal with either being on the fence or having a stance on an issue, as of right now I don't know how I should be feeling.

Commenting on fame

       Since the seventeenth century people have been writing about the scandals of others.  This can be  seen through Samuel Johnson's diary where he comments on the life and those around him. The need to talk about others is further pushed when newspapers began to comment on the personal lives of aristocrats.  This commenting becomes so prevalent in newspapers and magazines that even play writes such as F. Burney and R. Sheridan began to talk and comment on the lives of rich and famous in their satirical 1770's plays.
   Now lets fast forward 200+ years where becoming famous has become as easy as writing a blog, self publishing a novel, starting a fashion line, etc.  The ways to Warhol's fifteen minutes of fame are numerous, but how long one will stay in the spotlight is debatable.  However, those that stick around or forever commented on by bloggers and paparazzi. If you make a bad fashion choice, or end up in a bad movie role in a movie people will know about it and comment on it. 
   But these days bloggers, podcasts and the common man via twitter can now voice their opinions about movies and television shows. One positive of this is that people's opinion dictates how a story might turn out in the end in a television show.  But is this a good thing, because times even when a tiny show has become popular it can still be cancelled. The examples are numerous such as "Firefly, Dollhouse, Pushing Daisies", etc.  However, it has been such viewers that has been able to with such things such a "Firefly" and "Veronica Mars" movies.
    I think it might be a double edged sword where viewers dictate what is on television but at the same time they are not always able to do anything if a show or someone gets the axe in a television show.  (spoiler alert) A great example of this would be "Downton Abbey" where they killed off two of the main characters leaving viewers both mad and sad at the end of the third season.  The viewers had no control of this since we did not that their acting contracts had expired after three years.  So this has me wondering if people need this immediate feedback/commentary on a television show and their actors? Also is this feedback a good thing? And if it is why?
    I ask this because shows like "Pretty Little Liars" and "Gossip Girl" reveal how private information being revealed in a public nature can destroy lives. In the case of "Pretty Little Liars" they are blackmailed into behaving a certain way. While in "Gossip Girl" it is very voyeuristic with others watching and analyzing your every move in the spotlight. These shows seem to be commentary themselves on how even some private information of fictional major figure heads seem be off limits in the information age. But this has me asking why these figures, what is so important about them? Why them and not anyone else? So readers I ask if you have any responses or thoughts to my many questions.

This whole debate is garbage...

   I am currently residing in a city where there is a huge debate about who should be providing the garbage services for the city. Our mayor wants to switch over to a private corporation for garbage disposal services and will provide fees to help keep our broke city afloat.  The issue is that the city where I live has a unemployment rate lower than the states and I am all for public workers keeping their jobs rather than standing in line for  food stamps or unemployment.  The mayor last December was able to pass a bill to let the private corporations take over the garbage disposals for the city. The people of my city were not happy about this and neither was I.
   So their was a local petition started so that the people could have a say as to who does their garbage disposal services.  This then has made a bill that will be voted on June 4th, and the people will decide what they want. I think the reason the mayors public is annoyed by her trying to pull a fast one is that we had no say in who would be doing our garbage disposal services. Furthermore, she is getting rid of jobs in a city with an already high unemployment rate which to me seems dumb on her part.  Also with the privatization of their garbage disposal service people don't know if their rates will be raised, how good the service will be, or any of a variety of factors.  Also the public service that is currently in place people seem to like and it has served us well for over a decade.
   Finally, I think people are more comfortable with the evil they know, compared to the evil they don't.  While, I am for this service not being privatized, I can understand the city needing the funds, but all this has me thinking is that there has to be another way. If people can raise over millions of dollars to start a Veronica Mars movie, people would certainly raise money to invest in our fair city. My ultimatum to our lovely mayor is to please find another way to make up for the lost money in the budget that does not involve pissing off your constituency.  So readers I have to ask what to do you think privatize the business, or keep it with the same public service that has gotten good ratings and that the people are rooting for?  
   

The discoveries made through grief...

    I have been talking with various people lately and it has had me think about how much grief can change a person and those around you. For instance when a relative dies you begin to discover your true friends by those that are those for you, and by those who would rather you leave you in the dust be it due to denial or other reasons.  I have experienced grief many times through losing a boss, grandpa, and grandma. While, these experiences have not thrilled me I think they have made me stronger and made me want to make the most out of my life.
    However, as television can show us grief can have both negative and positive effects on a person. For instance in the show "Everwood", the grief of losing the mother figure gives the family a chance to come together and for the father and son to bond. However, when it comes to the show "Revenge" Emily's this sadness over the loss of her father is used a tool for anger and to enact revenge on her father for those that destroyed his life. But in the case of "Murder She Wrote" she shows the grief of her losing her husband making her a busy woman because she does not want to think about the soul mate she lost. Also, I think this holds her back because throughout the show from what I have seen she has never pursued a relationship with any of the older men on the show. This I think also has another purpose, which I think I can save for another blog post.  Also this has me wondering if someone dies if someones reaction to it is how they really are, or if its the sadness, anger, depression, and denial talking?
      I think it could be a bit of both. I say this because when my Grandma died I wanted to hide under my bed and cry for weeks on end. I knew this was not an option I had a thesis to edit and finish and I had to keep living life as a graduate student. I was a wreck for the first couple months after I couldn't even look at her picture from the program at her wake. I think I was more sad that I couldn't be at her side to tell her how much I loved her, I was never given the opportunity since she was cremated and had not left a will about what she wanted to happen to her body when she died. I still can't get myself to look at her picture, but even with the woulda, coulda, shouldas I think about the good memories we did have together. 
      Ok, now to stop myself from crying, readers I have to ask how have you dealt or deal with sadness such a family member or friend dying? Also what do you when those that you are close to have experienced a death of someone close to them?