Whats love got to do with it?

  Not to be tangential but while I was in the car with a friend of mine, he started complaining about having to write articles about masturbation, oddly enough for a blog. I then started asking him about the types of sex he had to do articles for this blog and how in-depth he had to go. This then he led me to ask if they had to do any articles about relationships. The funny thing was that this person liked to write more articles about relationships then sex. I find this funny because one assumes that as a men that writing about sex would be more interesting than say relationships. However this person does not meet the stereotype at all given that prior to being a man they were a woman, which add a whole new layer this conversation.
    Also it had me thinking about on views of sex and relationships and  strangely enough as a woman sometimes I care more about sex. I view sex though as the means to help the relationship flourish and keep things going. I also view the relationship as important for being able to talk to one another, laugh, and maintain intimacy.  This debate just has me wondering what matters more the sex or the relationship or are they both integral to maintain what would be deemed as a normal relationship. I am not sure about this as the sex and the relationship for me tend to bleed into one another. This is also a question of mine because in this hookup dating culture that has tended to permeate the younger generation in which giving and getting head seems to be part of the first date ritual, and the view of  old fashioned courtship seems to be an outdated method. I am just basing this off of horror stories about first and second date stories that I have heard from various friends and acquaintances who will remain anonymous.  So I ask you readers should I even be debating the value of sex and relationships or is it like comparing apples and oranges?

Stuck in a world between old and young, while emotionally eating all the while

   My worlds have become very opposite in my work world I feel too old compared to my colleagues who are trying to finish their BA degrees while in my networking group I think I am viewed as one of the young ones so far. I have not made it to a monthly meeting of the networking group so I won't have a good idea about how many "young" people are in the group tell then.  So far I have only counted two me and one other person. Also in dealing with the stress of hunting for a job and joining job groups I have been emotionally and stress eating and for someone who has been trying to lose weight for way too long this is not a good idea. I have noticed I get started and then something happens and I return to my bad habits.
    Well at least I am noticing a pattern. My plan tomorrow is to at least go back to counting calories. I plan to include exercise when my schedule is more routine tell then I will probably walking every day at least. Also I need to continue avoiding the scale for a while because I saw the numbers this morning and I was not happy. I am  edging way too close to what I weighed before. At least with yoga last semester I was able to maintain my weight.
   I think in trying to lose weight and get a job the stress of it all is telling me is I need to find more healthy ways to deal with stress no matter how little or big. So that way I can lose weight and have an income. I need more impulse control. I am hoping once I have adjusted to a "schedule" of some sorts that I will have an easier time with the job hunting and losing weight. Readers any thoughts to accomplish any of these small goals would be much appreciated...

The art of putting yourself out there...

   I recently joined a networking group and will have my graduation day tomorrow, yeah.  It has been an interesting experience to say the least. I have met some very enthusiastic and passionate people. However, given that I think I am a ambiavert I tend to save my enthusiasm for certain situations and be quiet or nervous in situations when I don't know the person all that well.  I didn't know whether I should be scared or impressed by their energy. I am one of those calm go with the follow kind of people but I will freak out on occasion given that I am human. The one thing I can comment on this whole experience so far is that I won't have time to be in a funk with all the resumes I will have to be writing, places to apply to, and practice interviews to do while still figuring out what I plan to do with my life.  I have gone from having nothing to do to thinking I am going to need a planner to keep track of my "new" schedule.
     I am just hoping I can keep up with it. I have been attending these early events while getting over laryngytis since apparently I am a masochist. I will be glad to get to friday and my bed and sleep, as much as this experience as woke me up in a sense. However, this waking up while a good thing, is not helping with the getting sleep and feeling better part of my recovery which is all on me. I think after this sleep I can figure out somewhat what to do in this so called "transitioning" part of my life post grad school. Or at the very least come up with a vague outline of the stuff I know I can do without turning myself into a human tornado. I am curious are there any other people who felt this lost/wondering/confused once they were done with school? 

I am not sure if I have a dream...

     Alright for the networking group I am in we basically as a group with the help of a perk uplifting speaker who reminded me of a self help book in person form who wanted to help the group figure out what our ideal dream or vision was and how to get there. This for me is very confusing because I have just finished my education at least for now and their are many dreams I would like to accomplish. Also I know because I have goal or dream in mind, that does mean that A) I am good at it B) that I should be making a career out of it. I am at this point in my life where even if I have one clear cut dream and ways to get there that I need to keep my options open if I ever want to make a living and start a career of some sort.
    I don't view this as a negative thing. Also I know for any dreams that I want to happen that I am going to have to work for it. The one thing that the speaker and many of my colleagues did was give me ideas on top of my own ideas of how I was going to get there. But this is scary for me to because just because I want the dream and think I will be good at it, it does not mean that it will happen. I think my issue is that I am too much of a jaded realist and I have learned time and time again that what you plan for in life and what actually happens are two totally different things. I guess this might have been why I had a hard time buying into what the speaker was saying and thinking that if you envision it that it will happen, because life experience has taught me otherwise. So I am curious reader do think I should have taken what the speaker was saying with a grain of salt or just given this person the benefit of the doubt and tried to learn from them?