Matilda and the return to childhood

   I first read Matilda when I was nine years old and had very few friends in elementary school and dealing with life events of both of parents getting remarried at the same time. Well given how much I like my denial about whatever I am going through, reading Matilda was an escape from all this through wondering how Matilda would take down the Trunchbull and admiring her for being both humble and brilliant at the same. While at the same time wishing I had the patience of Miss Honey. Also this book was able to reveal to me the perks of getting lost in a good book and putting yourself in the shoes of the protagonist.
    Through reading I have been able to transport myself to the eighteenth century, pretend I am in the victorian era through such books as Great Expectations, Hard Times, Daniel Derroda, Dr. Jekyl and Mr. Hyde and many others. I do have my favorites though such as Hitchhikers guide to the galaxy, any food memoir books I can get my hands on, and the YA literature series of Harry Potter and the Hunger Games.  I have a diverse appetite for books because you never know what you will find when you are not looking. I currently have a reading list set for myself that will take me a while to complete, much less start. However, it is due to Matilda that I love to read books and get lost in that world. Also its also because of this book that I want to teach English because these books I have had such a profound effect on me, I would hope to impart this same love to my future students.

p.s. I will post on Dickens Tale of Two cities after this book I hope...

The art of letting go part two...

  Well it has been another week of loss, so to speak I just lost my dog lady to a dog tumor while simultaneously pissing a couple people off. I seem to be best at driving people away whether I mean to or not. I seem to suck at keeping friendships lately due to my own social awkwardness and heart break over losing my dog lady or any other losses this year. I think all this loss has made me depressed whether I want to be or not. However I just read a quote by Joseph Campbell that states:
“We must be willing to let go of the life we have planned, so as to accept the life that is waiting for us.”  I think this applies because things in my life have so not gone as planned I do not have a TA teaching job, or Drivers license and one person who used to be my closest friends is not talking to me.  But I know that life is supposed to happen when one is making plans. I think maybe I am tired of making plans or being mildly depressed I think I would like things to work out for once.
     This is kind of hard given that sometimes I am my own worst enemy when it comes to people and I tend to try to hard whether I am meaning to or not. Or I become my own self saboteur to my relationships, either way it is not a good thing. I know I need to let go, and that I should let go and not be this depressed, given that I am going back to not having had a good night sleep in days. I guess I have to have some glimmer of hope that things will moderately improve and that I will have something to look forward to in the future.